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Ole
Name: Ole Joergen Malm (ojmalm or Lonermutant on various messageboards/diccussiongroups)
Interests, hobbies, obsessions, perseverations etc: Playing bass! Music, comics, movies, exercising.
Year of birth: 1973
Profession, area of study, etc: Currently: Part time museum archivist
Where you live in the world: Namsos, Norway
Marital status, # of kids etc.: Very single, tired of trying online dating!
Personal webpage url: http://home.online.no/~ojmalm/ and http://groups.yahoo.com/group/disorderlymetal
Comments: I've got a rare chromosome translocation, Epilepsy, Asperger's, dyspraxia and tics and hypervigilance as a result of post-traumatic stress disorder.
Why I always grin:
Some people with Asperger's "shut down" when things get too complicated and they are in a place with a lot of people and noise. We who have Asperger's call it "shutdown".
This is why I grin, i shut down in panic.
I've been called smiley, mongo and lately also faggot. I'm straight, but If you're over 25 and not dating or married or you don't even seem interested in women people easily spread rumors that you're gay. I just don't even try dating, I can't stand being around people.
Before I got my Asperger diagnosis, I believed that this was because of my Epilepsy and I have also written about this, but now I know that it was because of Asperger's Syndrome.
To those who call me these things:
I hope that your children never has to go through this!! For a long time I believed that my tics were caused by the combination of Lamictal and coffee, but on a holiday trip the stopped and didn't start again until I came back to my hometown.
This made me certain that I have huge mental injuries because of bullying

One of my lyrics:
YOU MAKE MY LIFE A HELL
(Lyrics: Malm)

You make my life a hell with your words
You sentence me to a life of paranoia
I may have siezures, tics and make sounds
But I’m not a freak, that role is yours
To me you’re the freak and the loser

You may be only nine you may be ten
You spread the word that I’m a monster
To your friends, now a new generation
Of bulliers are born
You make my life a hell with your words

I hoped as I grew older, the lies would die out,
But they just exploded in my face again and again
Small children now see me as a freak
Indoctrinated by you and your friends
But these friends may someday turn against you

You may be only nine you may be ten
You spread the word that I’m a monster
To your friends, now a new generation
Of bulliers are born
You make my life a hell with your words

Every age, every color bully me
Of cause racism is very wrong
“Retardism” is all right, in their eyes
I feel the paranoia rage in my head
Feel the stares like a whip inside my brain

You may be only nine you may be ten
You spread the word that I’m a monster
To your friends, now a new generation
Of bulliers are born
You make my life a hell with your words

Because of you, I freeze with fear
Everytime a group of 8-year olds
Pass me on the street, I fear their words
I fear their stares, fear their grins
Because of you the nightmares never leave me

You may be only nine you may be ten
You spread the word that I’m a monster
To your friends, now a new generation
Of bulliers are born
You make my life a hell with your words
(Repeat)


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